Stacy's voice makes Eric jump. He hadn't heard her come in, and his head   now snaps up. Depression? Kidding or not, maybe she was right. It had   been a long time since he'd felt this low. He gives her something close   to half a smile and turns his attention back to his coffee, figuring   she'd leave. He guessed she was just making her rounds.
When she   approaches instead though, his eyes crawl back up to watch her. The   firelight had a gentle touch as it caressed her facial features and   glowed within her gaze. He feels his guard being lowered. Maybe the fire   really did have a calming effect. But was it really the flames at all?   As Stacy looks at him, his eyes meet hers. What did she want? Why  hadn't  she turned and left? Surely after the fiasco today in town she  didn't  want anything to do with him. But.. she looked far from  perturbed  tonight. Her eyes were... deep... almost soothing in a  strange sort of  way.
He still hadn't spoken when she breaks the  silence once  more. Anyone could have asked if he was okay. It was a  polite enough  question. Nothing odd about it, really. And yet... when  Eric cocks his  head and squints slightly to see deeper into her eyes,  it's a genuine  concern he sees. It wasn't fake. For some reason, she  really did care.
"Not  really." His own response surprises  himself. He could just as easily  say yes he was fine and leave it at  that. But after today's events, he  just didn't have the energy to  pretend anymore. His gaze finally drops  and he takes another sip of his  coffee. Maybe one more apology needed to  be made tonight. And maybe...  he needed to explain a few things. Now  was as good a time as any -  maybe better since they were alone. He  gestures to the empty seat  across from him. "Have a seat." If she was  brave enough to talk to him,  he could be brave enough to do the same.
"I,  um..." He fidgets  with his fingers around his coffee mug. "I guess I  want to apologize. I  think Jeff's right that I've... been kinda cranky  ever since I got  back to the ranch and... I ain't got an excuse." He  shrugs lamely.  "Just kinda hard for a guy in my position to keep his  head up I guess,  and it got the best of me."
A wry sort of grin  creases his lips  and he shakes his head before looking up at Stacy  again. "I... don't  know what you've heard around here, but the truth is I  was married  recently for... about three days before she left, never to  be seen  again." Even though the grin remains, the pain is still in his  eyes...  pain from losing love and pain from feeling so stupid. "But I  guess  that's what I get for falling for a con-artist."
He sighs   deeply. "Took everything. My life's savings completely gone, and with   it, my reputation." And his heart. "I should've seen it coming -   apparently it was pretty obvious, but... I was blind. Now I'm dealing   with trying to get the whole thing annulled." He gives a sorry kind of   laugh. "After that, I don't know what that makes me. Not married, not   divorced... just damaged goods I guess - as if my own stupidity didn't   make me undesirable enough." He smirks and taps his temple. "That came   from an accident years ago that took a nice chunk of sense out of my   brain."
Shaking his head again, Eric takes another sip of his   coffee. His eyes fall back to Stacy, knowing that surely he must look   like the biggest loser in the world. "At any rate... none of that's a   very good excuse and... I'm sorry if I haven't been myself. I'm... sorry   about today especially. I shouldn't have acted like I did."
Tal's  eyes widen for a moment, his cheeks reddening slightly, but his  grin  spreads. "Careful," he warns. "You wouldn't want me to get a big  head."  His laughter finally bubbles over and he pulls Ryan close for a  tight  hug. "Mmm... you spoil me, you know that?"
Finally  letting her go, he gestures to the array of utensils and  ingredients  on the counter. "Alright, Miss Sexy. Time to put your money  where your  mouth is. You said pancakes. Have at it. Me - I'm gonna give  my dog  some of her own breakfast. Oh, and I called into both our works  already  to let 'em know we wouldn't be in today."
Running  back to the house with Alice, Kyle couldn't remember when he'd  been  this happy. This was bliss. This was joy. This was a gift God had  given  him that he would never take for granted.
The  house itself was a blessing. Never would he have had the money for   such a purchase, but when his aunt and uncle had gotten wind of his   future plans, they wouldn't let him say no. He'd pay them as he could   and they insisted on blessing others with a house with which God had   blessed them and their family so much. The only stipulation was to take   good care of it, to fill the rooms and halls with joy, and to use the   house in any way God might lead - including the Christ-filled band. Kyle   had wanted to say no - he'd said that he couldn't accept such a thing,   but they had insisted. Finally, Kyle had given in, as long as he could   continue to pay them what he could, when he could, until everything  was  paid off. And they'd agreed.
And  now that Alice loved the place too... it made it perfect. And Kyle   knew he'd made the right choice. Some might hold it against him - that   others had to work for what they had or that some didn't have families   like that to just hand things to them. But Kyle knew that it wasn't a   gift from family - it was a gift from God, and whether through the band   or through raising a family, he would honor God with these walls. And  he  knew that Alice would do the same.
Watching  the door at Mom and Pop's close, Carson sighs. He stands in the   kitchen, looking out through the serving window for a few moments,   dishtowel in hand. Mackenzie and her family had just left after coming   in for lunch. It wasn't the first time. Since they'd moved here, they   had gotten together several times, whether for a lunch, an evening of   board games, or once they had met at the lake for a picnic. The little   get-togethers never lasted too long - just long enough for Mackenzie to   get her wish to see her dad, and for Carson to slowly get used to   socializing with his young daughter. It was a good arrangement. It was a   safe one. But each time, Mackenzie was a little less willing to   leave... a little less willing to say goodbye.
Ken  and Jeanette  were doing all they could. They were trying to  compromise, and though it  was obvious that Mackenzie loved visiting  Carson, she was starting to  push the limits again. The family had moved  not too long after they had  visited Nevada. Now in Lewis City, Ken had  settled in with his insurance  job and they were all getting used to  their new home. Mackenzie had  told Carson it was a nice house - a big  one out on the edge of town with  a big yard and a swimming pool. She  seemed to love it, but preferred  talking about her time with Carson  rather than her adopted family.
Settling   into school was another matter. A Christian school was a godsend, and   Tina was integrating well. Mackenzie, on the other hand, was not. With   low grades and getting lippy with teachers, she had spent more than one   day staying late after winding up at the principal's office. The   teachers had been informed of Mackenzie's background and they were   willing to work with her, but it wasn't going well.
Carson's  eyes  watch as the family car drives away from the restaurant. Ken had   admitted some of their struggles to him today. Carson wished he could   help, but he wasn't sure what he could do. They could stop all   communication and force Mackenzie to move on, but they all knew she'd   just run away and come here anyway. It was good to see her smile... to   see her laugh. She had more color in her face now and her eyes were a   bit brighter. But there was so much going on in her young mind and   heart. It would take time for such deep wounds to heal. And Carson had   yet to figure out exactly where he fit in to things. It was still   awkward to give his child a hug.
He  sighs again and finally turns  back to the kitchen. He couldn't let the  day get to him. Seeing  Mackenzie was only one thing in a very busy  day.
"Carson?"
He   whirls around at the female voice and stares at the woman who stood in   the kitchen doorway. He hadn't even seen her enter the restaurant. The   rest of his worries vanish and he blinks. "Jaz?"
Spotting  Bree emerging from the hospital with Amanda, Gunner grins and waves,  heading to the driver's side of his car. It looked like they were going  to pull this off after all. He could only imagine which tactic Bree had  decided to use on Amanda to get her out here. "Are you ladies ready to  roll or what?" he hollers.
Inside  the car, with the windows down, JT glances in the rearview mirror in  time to see Amanda and his niece. What kind of scheme had been cooked up  here anyway? He didn't know whether to be happy or mad at this point.
As  Bree's voice carries to the car, her comment about him and Amanda being  in love reaches JT's ears. Even though no one could see him, his face  goes red and he sinks lower in his seat. If this was some forced  romantic getaway, Gunner was dead meat. Putting a hand to his forehead,  he just waits. Apparently they were just going to have to ride this one  out to see what shenanigans Gunner and Bree would come up with.
Gunner  catches Bree's wink and returns one. They'd deal with any resistance as  they went. As far as the two doctors wanting to return to work... well,  they'd just be out of luck. "Ready to go, Captain?"
The  car rocks slightly as Gunner gets in but JT doesn't move, keeping a  hand over his eyes. "Just you wait, Gunner... just you wait."
Gunner only grins and looks out the window to Bree, who was, by now, in her car. He waves her to go ahead and he'd follow.
Just  as planned, the foursome stops at Amanda's, but only briefly and Gunner  forces JT to remain in the car while they wait. A comment is made about  not letting the fish get away and it only serves to make JT sink even  lower in his seat, folding his arms in defiance. By now, he wouldn't  even look out the window... he couldn't face Amanda yet. This was his  niece and friend kidnapping them... what would she think? He was on the  verge of mortified.
Being  mortified, however, has a way of diminishing with the miles. And miles  were what the two vehicles put between them and town. Out of town, off  the main highway and into the foothills. It was a gorgeous day -  sunshine and a light breeze the whole way. JT gave up asking where they  were going - Gunner would only engage in small talk and wouldn't reveal  their destination.
Soon,  they turned off the highway onto a main road, then off of that onto a  back road, and eventually off of that onto a narrow, wooded lane that  wound up into the foothills. Ruts made for a bumpy ride and the two cars  had to take it slowly. Finally though, they emerged into a clearing of  grass that waved gently in the breeze. Surrounded by trees and adjoining  a large pond, it was the perfect spot for camping. Cattails danced near  the calm water's edge and the sun glistened off the tiny ripples. A  dock stretched out a short ways into the water, though there wasn't much  need for a boat - one could easily swim to the other side and back, and  the pond was just big enough for fishing. A tall, old oak tree provided  an ideal spot for tents, and a worn place in the ground proved others  had camped here, though the location was little-known.
Gunner  parks a ways from the pond and kills the engine. He glances over to JT,  who was still in his hospital garb. "You'll prolly wanna change," he  suggests with a grin and a teasing punch to JT's shoulder. "Come on. The  fun is just starting."
Though  impressed with the little campsite's atmosphere, JT gives Gunner a dry  look in return. "I can hardly wait," he retorts. Getting out of the car,  he goes to the trunk to rummage through the things his niece had  packed.
Gunner  wanders over to Bree's car and waits for her to get out before giving  her a quick kiss to the lips. "Well... we got 'em here... when do I get  to suck their blood?"
"I heard that!"
Gunner  stifles a laugh as he looks over to his car where JT had his back  turned. "He's even more of a stick in the mud than I thought." Finding  Amanda, he tosses her a wink. "Welcome to the hideaway. You might wanna  go get that stick in the mud out of the mud before he gives himself a  hernia. Bree and I will start on the tents. Oh, and..." He raises his  voice so JT could hear, too. "Don't bother using your cell phones - no  service up here. And don't even think about pagers - there's a pond for  those."
JT  rolls his eyes but doesn't respond. He finally finds a t-shirt and pair  of jeans, along with his old tennis shoes. Shutting the trunk, he  glances around, finding only trees.
Hanging  up the phone, Justin really wasn't sure what to feel. Part of  him was a  little tense about seeing Beth - though she said talking could  wait,  it didn't mean that it erased what had happened. But part of him  was  relieved. He hadn't know how she'd react to his call, and seeing now   that she would come... it made him respect her and her growth all the   more. He knew that he was asking a lot of her. He knew that this was   probably another step out of her comfort zone. But she'd said yes. And   somewhere, Justin was proud of her, once again.
Taking  a deep breath, he finally gets up to finish gathering his  mother's  items. Then he left the house and headed to North Springs...
...Walking  up and down the halls, Justin grew weary. They were still  working on  Jared. His mother was faring okay. With her friends to help,  it had  eased his burden a little, and at least they were keeping her   distracted by walking, sitting in the cafeteria or visiting the little   gift shop. Now she had fallen asleep in the waiting room. Justin had let   her be, but couldn't sit still any more.
He  glances at his watch. Not that it mattered. Time really didn't seem  to  exist anymore. It was as if this was all a dream. Or a nightmare,   rather.
Just  ready to turn and go back, he stops as he hears the elevator ding.   Glancing in that direction, he stops as Beth comes into view. And for   just a split second, he feels how much he's missed her. Approaching her   slowly, he realizes she's juggling the coffee, so he offers to take two   of the cups. Catching her eye, he offers a sorry sort of smile. "Hi."  He  nods in the direction of the waiting room. Walking, he's silent,  trying  to figure out his own jumbled thoughts. Reaching the little  room, he  pauses, then opts for a couple chairs in the wide hall  instead. Maybe it  was selfish, but he'd rather have Beth to himself for  at least a few  minutes.
Easing  down, he takes one of the coffees as his own, nodding his thanks  to  Beth - he really was grateful for something to keep him awake. "Still   no news," he explains. "I guess that's good at this point." He sighs   heavily, knowing he should at least explain what had happened. "Idiot   was in the middle of the street and there was a car  wreck and he got  mangled in the middle of it." He scoffs. "Leaving a  woman's house, no  less. A woman who we'll probably not see again, nor  will she pay her  respects or visit Jared if he lives, because her  live-in boyfriend  might find out she was cheating on him." He shakes his  head. "My  brother never changes, you know that? Just when I think he  couldn't get  any lower, he proves me wrong, yet again."
Justin   wanted to say that Jared deserved this, but he holds his tongue. It  was  difficult, dealing with hating Jared's lifestyle, yet deep down  still  knowing he had a love for his brother, simply because he was, in  fact,  his brother.
Leaning  back and staring up at the ceiling, Justin's  mind bounces from one  thing to the next, never staying for long...  until he again thinks of  Beth and their last parting. He sighs once more. Giving  her a sidelong  glance, he finally turns his head and just studies her  for several  moments. Even though he'd given her the silent treatment, she'd  come  when he needed, and there was a lot to be said for that. Maybe  she'd  made a mistake... maybe there should have been better  communication...  but she was here now, and Justin was glad to have her  company again.
"I  know you said not to worry about this for now, but... I'm sorry," he   apologizes, "for giving you a cold shoulder." He rests his head  against  the wall, still looking at her. "I guess I wasn't sure how to  deal  with everything so I retreated into my own little world. Funny  thing  was... I found out that my own little world wasn't very hospitable   anymore." He pauses, searching her eyes. "I know you didn't mean to   upset me. I guess I wish you would have handled things differently, but I   still shouldn't have reacted like I did. I know you were only trying  to  help and for that, I'm grateful." He purses his lips in a  weak  smile. "I guess in light of everything happening today, my little  lapse  in behavioral judgment seems kinda trivial. I..."
He  stops, unsure if voicing those particular thoughts was what he really   wanted, and rephrases. "Thanks for coming, Beth. It means a lot."
Cindy  was glad to see Katie leave with Jamie. It was hard watching the young  woman so sad... digressing so as she watched the man she loved slowly  die. While Cindy's own pain was great, she knew Katie was suffering so  much as well.
Seeing  the two women leave, she wanders slowly back down the hallway, her arms  folded. She was tired... weary... and in a way, she just wanted all of  this to be over. Sighing, she aims for the infirmary. She would see  Jason... talk to him... then she would go back to her room.
As  she nears the open door though, she hears a man's voice, and she stops.  Curious, she looks cautiously around the corner. She puts a hand to her  mouth, shocked to see Trey. Her motherly instinct screamed at her to  enter and try to talk with him - try to embrace him. But her good sense  warned her not to. After their last encounter, she didn't want to risk  hurting her heart again.
She's  almost ready to simply move on, but then it's Trey's words that stop  her. Did he... actually care? As she listens, tears sting her eyes. So  badly did she want to embrace this son she didn't know. It wasn't true  that it would be better if she never knew him. She did want to know him.  She did want to call him her son. She did, so much. Especially now. She  was losing Jason... would she be forever without a son, now?
Unable  to hold her composure any longer, Cindy slips past the door and to the  next room where she closes herself in and lies on the bed.
Rick  rubs his tired eyes and throws away his paper cup, empty of coffee.  Exiting the break room, he goes back to the infirmary for another check  on Jason... and more work. He knew it was hopeless now, but nothing  could stop him from continuing to try and find the cure.
Entering  the infirmary, he stops short, very surprised to see Trey. The young  man hardly ever showed himself on the main level, let alone near Jason.  Was the young man... showing emotion? Not wanting to startle or make  Trey feel unwanted, Rick simply heads to the counter. Sifting through  some paperwork, he clears his throat. "There's a chair there if you want  to stay a while," he offers.
Chance  looks to Nate, his eyes still holding a dull stare. "She won't put up a  fight. I... hurt her too badly. She'll probably be glad to see me go to  the Underground."
Reese  nods. "I'm sure, Destiny will go with you willingly. But if not, Nate,  you mostly likely have more muscle. Don't hurt her, of course, but be  sure she gets to the car. Wyatt, you're to stay in the car unless you  are absolutely needed. We don't want to jeopardize the exchange or  anyone's safety and the Underground was pretty specific about the number  of men allowed."
He  takes a deep breath and looks around at everyone again. "If that's  all... you're dismissed to go about your duties. We will reconvene here  tomorrow night before you have to leave. Chance - after a short break,  please come to my office."
After  he leaves, Chance simply stares at the table, figuring that, within  moments, he'd be left alone. Wyatt fidgets a little and glances between  Nate and Dalton. He didn't like this. Something about it just seemed...  wrong. And he didn't understand his father's perspective on the trade.  "Well... I guess that's that."
Kip  sits alone at the picnic table, scraping some chipped paint with his   thumbnail. The park was quiet today - of that, he was glad. He'd almost   left... twice. But something had kept him here. Maybe it was his   promise to Kyle that he'd at least try this once. Apparently Kyle had   talked to this woman, Hope, and she'd agreed to meet Kip here. Kip had   refused to meet her in an office... the thought alone made him squirm.   This was better. He could see and move and leave if he wanted. He wasn't   so sure that this would help though. He supposed Kyle had given Hope   background information about his family... about his abuse. He wasn't   sure he was ready yet to even admit it had been abuse but that seemed   irrelevant. Kip really didn't know what this would help at all. Talking   about his problems? How would that solve anything?
He  sighs as  his knees start to bounce. He'd had a can of pop earlier and  that was  only serving to amplify his already-hyper state. Maybe he  should go for a  walk. Maybe he should just leave. Maybe this Hope  counselor woman  wouldn't even show-
His  thoughts come to a halt as he sees a  woman emerge from a car that had  just pulled into the park's lot. From  Kyle's description, Kip knew that  this was Hope. She was younger than  he'd thought - not that it really  mattered. For a moment, he doesn't  know if he should get up or stay  where he was, so he just decides to  remain seated. Though part of him  would rather take off for the other  end of the park, he forces himself  to make eye contact so she'd know it  was him.
He draws in a shaky breath, not even sure why he felt nervous. But he did. And this was way outside of his comfort zone.
Hal's  eyes catch movement and he turns to look more closely at the  screen  that monitored the back door into that went through the garage  and  lower level. No one ever used it other than an occasional exit, but   whoever had just arrived was using it as an entrance, and they had a key   card. Put on edge, Hal hits a few keys on the keyboard to focus the   indoor cameras on the garage and lower level halls. He's about ready to   call Con when the visitor stops and looks directly up at one of the   cameras, putting a finger to his lips.
Hal  breaks into a smile,  even though he's confused. In the back of his  mind, he wonders if  letting this go was wise. He didn't think he'd ever  see this man around  here again, and there had been questions as to his  loyalty to the Elite.  But... something told him that this was safe.  Leaning back in his  chair, he lets it go.
It  was a quiet day at TJY, and the  unexpected visitor was glad - it made  his walk through the lower level  then up the stairs to the hall much  easier, while unsuspecting eyes were  busy elsewhere. He hoped that Hal  had not notified anyone... if Hal was  even still in charge of the  cameras. It had come to mind that there  could be many things different  now. A year's time had a way of changing  things.
A  baseball cap hid most of his face and shadowed his  blind eye, and an  open flannel shirt hung from his thin shoulders over a  white t-shirt.  The closer he comes to his destination, the more  hesitant his steps  grow until he's barely moving. Out of the main  walkway, no one seems to  notice him, and he likes it that way. This was  going to be hard enough  without a bunch of unnecessary attention, let  alone the questions. It  seemed something was going on in the infirmary,  but he doesn't stop to  investigate.
Finally  arriving at the open  office door, he stops then hesitates for what  seemed an eternity.  Eventually, he looks inside, but finds it empty.  His stomach gives a  little flipflop. The light was off. And the thought  occurs to him that  Hope might not even be here anymore. But a quick  glance up to the  nameplate on the door proves otherwise. Maybe she was  just not working  today.
Mustering  up what gumption he has left, Scott slowly heads  towards the main  floor. His hands tremble slightly and he hopes that no  one notices him  yet. Peering out into the couple rows of cubicles, he  sees it really is  a quiet day. He spots a few heads bent over computers  and is just as  glad for their concentration. But there is one cubicle  his eyes remain  glued to.
Swallowing  hard, Scott moves again. His  fingers fiddle with the corner hem of his  flannel shirt and his steps  are short and quiet. Finally coming to the  cubicle, he stands in the  narrow doorway and just watches for several  moments. Fear of rejection  was running rampant through his veins today  and it almost made him sick  to his stomach.
Eventually, he clears his throat. "Hi, Sapphire," he greets softly.
9/25/11
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