Though  a bit surprised at Hope's halt and seat on the ground, Kip follows  suit, kneeling in the grass by the little flower bed. Confused, he pays  close attention to what she has to say, his gaze fixed on the flower as  she talks about it. Being handed the cup, he has no choice but to take  it, curious enough now to continue listening.
Putting the pieces  together as she weaves her words, he begins to realize what she's  getting at. His eyes watch as she digs up the flower and puts it in the  cup he's holding. He stares down at it before gently fingering the soft  petals and touching the little leaves as if trying to prompt it back to  healthy life. He didn't always notice flowers, but for some reason  today, he felt rather sorry for the trampled blossom.
Looking  back at he ground as Hope fills in the hole, he feels a new pang in his  heart... in a place where he had his own hole... in a place that was  full of scars. Before he can think about it too much, though, he  realizes Hope is standing again. Getting to his feet, he follows her  quietly, his pace much slower now. His head bent, he studies the flower  he still held, carrying the cup as if he thought if he squeezed too  tightly he might break it.
Without even realizing it, Kip has  gradually come to a full stop in the path. His eyes still studied the  delicate petals as his mind replayed all of Hope's words. He'd been  trampled just like this flower. He'd been neglected, too. Maybe he'd  even been dug up already by the efforts of his friends, but he'd had no  where else to go, and the holes left were far from being filled in.
His fingers stroke the bent stem. He was this flower.
As  his vision blurs, Kip turns his back on Hope. His lower lip quivers and  he swallows hard. He knew he had open wounds that needed to heal. He  knew those wounds were affecting his life and dictating his actions. He  knew that things between himself and his father were not "normal" but  really were unhealthy. He knew that, just like his flower, he'd been  forgotten. And as a result, this world had become a terrifying place to  live.
Drawing in a shaky breath, he sniffs and tries to compose  himself, but tears linger in his eyes. "I wasn't always like this," he  admits quietly. As a matter of fact, it really hadn't been that long ago  that he'd felt much happier. "When Kyle joined our group I was...  excited. I thought it was my chance, ya know?" He didn't know if Hope  knew the background of Kyle and the band, but he assumed he'd told her  as much. His life had been pretty good, living with Erik's family - he  couldn't complain, and he'd been the one to always make everyone laugh.  And now... now he was the only one not laughing.
He lifts his  shoulder to swipe away a leftover tear. "I don't know what happened  after that." He said he didn't, but he did. He'd had trouble with  hyperactivity but he'd probably always have trouble with that. He had  some confidence issues, but that wasn't abnormal. He was in new  surroundings - but the others were too. No... those weren't it. The  heart of the matter was that he'd been trampled on a few times, then  that last fight with his father had been the equivalent of someone  taking this flower and mercilessly ripping it out of the ground and  leaving it to die in the sun. Kyle was right. It all revolved around the  abuse.
Feeling a new tear trickle down his cheek, Kip ignores  it. He could feel Hope behind him, but remains as he is, unwilling to  face her. Holding up the flower, he squints at the sorry little sight.  "Wouldn't it be better if this flower had never been planted in the  first place? Then it would never have to go through this trauma."
As  Ryan steps back from Alec's touch, he recoils slightly, not used to her  retreating like that. The eyes that used to spark and glow when around  him now stared back at him like ice. He swallows hard.
As Ryan  talks, his stomach starts to churn. He remembered saying he hated her,  but he hadn't meant it. He'd just wanted her and Carson to leave so they  wouldn't get hurt. But deep down he knew that his words had cut like  knives and there was no taking them back.
Getting to Ryan's final  decision, her, "No," hits Alec harder than he'd thought it would. He  wasn't sure what he'd expected. He'd tried not to predict what Ryan  might say or how she'd react to him coming. But even so, somewhere, he  hadn't prepared for rejection. Hesitation, maybe, but not flat out  rejection. She hadn't even given them a chance to talk things over. He'd  said his piece, she'd said hers and that was it? Nothing more? She  wouldn't even consider the possibility of working things out? Did this  have something to do with that guy in there on the couch?
A seed of jealousy is planted.
His  eyes narrow slightly, trying to recover as quickly as possible from the  surprise of Ryan's response. But he wasn't fast enough. As his mouth  opens to respond, he's met with a closed door. Really? She was kidding,  right? He stares at the door.
Tal is sitting up by now and  can't help it that he's relieved when Ryan rejoins him. Maybe somewhere  deep down he'd worried just a little that she'd be swept off her feet  again by the man she'd cared for. But having her snuggle into him again,  the worry is washed away. He grins and gives her a squeeze, turning to  give her head a kiss. "Nah, nothing girly. When we paused the movie, I  wouldn't let Eli watch the ballet competition like he wanted to."
Eli throws him a smirk but has no rebuttal and simply turns the movie back on.
Outside,  Alec still stands. He knew he'd done some stupid things. He knew it  wouldn't be easy to gain back Ryan's trust. But this? She said she  forgave him, yet she wasn't going to even give him the time of day? He'd  come all this way and risked the Elite coming down on him, and all she  could say was no, without even trying? Seriously? He wasn't ready to  give up. Especially when she'd gone back inside to be with whoever it  was she'd been cuddled up with. It sure hadn't taken her long to find  someone else to warm his place on the couch.
"Ryan?" He knocks on the door again. "Come on. You can't just walk away and leave it like this."
Inside,  Eli looks up from the television and glances over at Tal and Ryan but  doesn't say anything. He'd heard Ryan's refusal and, quite frankly, he  was proud of her. Surely Alec wasn't childish enough to just stand there  and throw a fit.
Alec waits, but the door remains closed. He  tries the handle. Locked. Growling, he tries it again anyway. "I came  all the way over here. I risked the Elite coming down on me. I've  groveled. I've said all I can and you just walk away? Come on!"
As  the knocking grows louder, Eli rolls his eyes. The words, "You've got  to be kidding me," come to mind, but he doesn't say them. It wasn't  Ryan's fault. Glancing over at her again, he knew she didn't want to get  up, and he didn't want to make her either - once had been bad enough.  Surely Alec had gotten the message.
"Ryan! Just give me five minutes!" The knocking turns to several bangs.
"Think he'll go away?" Eli mutters.
Tal throws him a look and his arm tightens around Ryan. "I think someone forgot to tie his leash short enough."
More banging. "Just five minutes!"
Eli  shakes his head. "Alright. That's it." Getting to his feet, he swaggers  to the door, opening it quickly but only wide enough to show his  irritated stance. His eyes meet Alec's with challenge. "Ryan's done  talking to you. Apparently the closed door wasn't enough for you to  understand that. So I'll try it this time. Your conversation is over."
Alec  glares at Eli, his fists clenched at his sides. He scoffs. "I shoulda  known you'd come in her place. I guess I thought she'd have the guts to  come back out here."
Eli's temper flares, though he manages to  keep a lid on it while pointing a finger at Alec. "If I didn't feel so  sorry for you, I'd belt you right now. I don't need to defend Ryan - you  know good and well what kind of woman she is and the guts she has. So  all I'm going to say is leave. Now. Before I call the Elite and tell  them you're harassing people."
"You can't-"
"Leave, Alec."  Eli would never admit that speaking those words hurt. He'd trusted  Alec... he'd been his friend. Though not the same as Ryan, Eli had felt  betrayed too. "I'm through with you and Ryan's through with you. She's  moved on. We've moved on. You're no longer welcome here."
While  Alec wanted to argue, he knew Eli would do has he threatened and call  the Elite. And then he'd probably be in more trouble than he surely was  already. Still glaring, he wanted to push past him and go inside. He  wanted to force his way in and make them listen... make Ryan listen. He  wanted to say everything he wanted and not be told what to do. But  looking at Eli, he knew he'd be stupid to try.
Backing up a step,  Alec takes one last glance inside, then one last glance at Eli. A light  scoff comes out, followed by a wry sort of grin. "See ya around then."  He nods, and finally turns to leave, his footsteps slow as if his feet  weighed more than they should.
Eli watches him leave and doesn't  close the door again until he's satisfied that Alec really wasn't coming  back. Locking up again, he returns to his chair in the living room to  plop down and resume watching the movie.
Tal had heard the brief  conversation and knew that Ryan had, too. He didn't know how she felt,  but he knew it couldn't be good. And that made him sad. Moving down on  the couch, he roots around in the cushions until he's lying on his side  and he pulls Ryan down in front of him, tucking her in close with a  strong arm wrapped around her. Hooking her legs with his, he kisses the  back of her head and settles into the throw pillow to stay for the  duration of the movie.
Completely in his own little  world, Eric never even saw Stacy coming. Smacking into her full-force,  it was pure reflex that drives his hands out to grab her so he didn't  knock her right to the floor. "Whoa!" His eyes widen as he tries to  catch his balance.
Steady again, he realizes his hands are still  on her waist and he retracts quickly, only to realize that Stacy's own  hands are on his arms. Her touch was... soft... warm... delicate but  strong. Eric blinks and tries to shake a sudden strange feeling that he  didn't want to acknowledge. Then he remembers he doesn't even had a  shirt on, which automatically sends heat to his face.
Clearing  his throat, he backs up a step, embarrassed amusement in his eyes. In  order to salvage any dignity, he reaches up to lean a forearm on the  wall, while crossing his ankles and setting a hand on his hip. His pose  was an obvious attempt to fake a cool move, and a chuckle slips out.  "Um... good morning?"
Feeling Beth's hand on his, Justin  almost tenses... almost. A sensation seems to spread up through his arm,  winding its way around until slipping through the tiny cracks  surrounding the back door to his heart. It was a feeling he'd avoided.  It was a feeling he hadn't wanted to face. But today... today things  were not the same.
Slowly turning his hand over, his palm meets hers, his thumb running gently along her hand for a moment. "Thanks, Beth."
Leaning  his head back against the wall he stares at nothing in particular,  while leaving his hand right where it was. "Ma's doing okay I think.  Freaked out there for a while but some of her friends came and helped  calm her down." He sighs. "I know she might be losing her son but... I  don't know... I guess I still see a guy who deserved this, even though I  know that's a poor attitude on my part."
He takes a sip of his  coffee, grateful again for Beth bringing the warm drink. "At any rate,  I'm sure Ma will be glad to see you too."
As she was. It wasn't  long before Justin shares Beth's company with Lydia, who does her best  to dry her tears and gives Beth a big hug and a thanks for coming. It  was hard waiting, but that's all that could be done. As the hours  passed, a numbness overtook the initial shock, bringing on a strange  combination of exhaustion and alertness. Soon, the news comes that Jared  had made it through multiple surgeries. The little group wasn't yet  informed of the total extent of his injuries, but it still wasn't  looking good, and the doctor wouldn't say one way or the other if he  thought Jared even had a chance to survive the night.
While Lydia  and Justin opted to continue staying at the hospital, Justin knew he  couldn't expect the same of Beth - she had her own life and a job she  needed to be at...
"...so I know you probably need to go." Justin  slowly paces the small hallway, fiddling with his half-empty pop can.  He stops for a moment to look at Beth, managing the best smile he could.  He was so tired and knew the stress must be so obvious on his face. "I,  um... really appreciated your company today though. I'm glad you came."
Gunner  snickers and shakes his head. "I have a feeling he's gonna find out the  hard way about a lot of things." He reaches up to squeeze Bree's knee  to tickle her.
JT rolls his eyes. "I have a funny feeling too,  and it says you're right." Picking up his coffee mug again, he takes a  sip and grimaces, finding out that it had grown cold."
Gunner  sighs deeply and gives Bree's leg a pat before hefting himself up off  the ground and brushing himself off. "Well..." He stretches tall and  yawns a big yawn. "I don't know about the rest of you, but this vampire  is getting a weebit sleepy. And you know we vampires get grouchy when we  don't get our beauty sleep." He reaches down to take both of Bree's  hands and pull her up quickly, all the way into a hug and a quick peck  on the lips. "What say we leave these youngsters be, while we, uh, go...  make sure the tents are set up correctly?"
A wry grin curls JT's lips and he looks up at them with a dry expression. "Careful, Vamp. There's garlic in her sleeping bag."
Gunner  laughs and slings an arm around Bree's shoulders to head away from the  campfire. In reality, he just wanted to give JT and Amanda some space.  Though being alone with Bree for a while was a bonus. "Don't worry, Papa  Bear, I'm too tired to suck anyone's blood." Once nearer the tents,  Gunner stops and turns to look down at Bree, his eyes twinkling as light  from the moon and nearby fire reflect in his gaze. "I hope you don't  mind me pulling you away. I was about to go crazy watching your uncle  slide further and further away from Amanda." He chuckles. "Maybe now  he'll at least talk to her."
JT watches as his niece and  Gunner leave and he just shakes his head. Turning up his nose at his  coffee again, he tosses it out into the grass behind them before sighing  deeply. Just staring at his empty cup, the heat from the campfire seems  to grow even warmer. Or maybe it was just him. A sidelong glance creeps  over to Amanda and all of a sudden he felt very silly. Here he was, a  grown man, and he'd been avoiding a very good... pretty... friend ever  since they'd gotten here.
Almost smirking at himself, he gets up  and moves to sit down on the log beside Amanda. "So, I, um... haven't  had a chance to actually ask you yet what you think about being the  victim of a kidnapping." A chuckle slips out and he shakes his head. "I  don't know which is worse - them doing it, or me letting them." Looking  into the fire, a grin remains. "Maybe I was just waiting for a real  reason to take some time off work."
Wyatt snickers at  Nate's comment about gaining weight. "Yeah, I'd hate to drag your sorry  carcass anywhere now. We'd never make it in time."
Still  grinning, he shakes his head. "No good about Dalton. We take him out of  here, Dad's gonna know in an instant we're up to something. He just  needs to prep a secondary screen in case anybody walks in on him.  Besides all that, he couldn't track us if he was up on a roof with Con.  Naw... I'd say our next step is to ask Con if he'd be willing to go with  us and then see if Dalton will agree too. If one of them says no, we'll  put the kabosh on it."
He thinks for a moment, then sighs. "I hope Destiny really is okay. I don't know if Chance could take it if she wasn't."
"Where'd he go?"
"Across  town. Far as I can tell, he went to the McKade place. It was  slow  going the whole way so I'd say he was on foot the entire time. He's  on  the move again now, but I think he's just headed back to his   apartment."
Reese looks over Hal's shoulder at the monitor and nods. "Well, just keep an eye on him."
Hal glances up at him. "You don't want me to send somebody to get him?"
"Not  unless it's obvious he's running." Reese sighs. "Alec's like a   high-strung kid. Come down on him too hard and you'll break his spirit.   Give him no rules and he'll run wild. I wanna try giving him some   freedom. We still know where he is at all times and I have a hunch he's   not gonna try to split."
Hal shrugs. "Whatever you say."
"Let  me know where he goes for sure. I figured he'd test us pretty quick  - I  want to try giving him this small bit of freedom. It's my last  effort  to try and make this work."
Hal glances back at the screen. "If it doesn't, that'll kill the program won't it?"
"Yeah."
Hearing  all about everyone at TJY, Scott again felt as though a lifetime had  passed. It was almost a numbing feeling though. He felt like he should  be sad or happy or anything - but he'd been so far removed from  everything, that it was almost as if he were entering a life he didn't  even know anymore. Jason was dying? It was a strange pang in Scott's  heart. Laura and Nate had had their baby? They were a family now... a  family Scott didn't even really know. Alec had gone and come back again?  Justin had mentioned something about that. And Gage? It sounded like he  was doing well. Scott wasn't quite sure how he was supposed to feel  about that one. And his parents... yes, he'd see them. He should. It was  only right, no matter if there was tension there or not.
Smiling  a little at Sapphire's last comment, Scott shakes his head. "You don't  ramble. You just share a lot of information. If you stopped now, you  wouldn't be Sapphire anymore."
Taking a sip of his drink, he  leans back a little, feeling tired but not wanting to yet. He wasn't  used to being out and about, and the emotional wear and tear alone was  enough to exhaust him. But he didn't want it to end this day faster than  it should.
"How, um..." He bites his lower lip, afraid to even  ask. Maybe he shouldn't. But he did want to know. "How's Hope? I... I  looked for her but didn't see her."
10/16/11
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